| Mar. 1st, 2005 @ 07:37 pm You always say goodnight... |
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Current Mood:  hmmm ... ?!
Current Music: The Juliana Theory
If you're not in a thinking mood, just forget that this is here and don't bother to read it. =P
Observation and Comment:
Something Neil said in his last entry made me think. He said he wanted to start writing in his journal what he actually felt. ... Did any of you ever notice that these are not really journals to express what we really think and feel but are instead sideline modes of communication and expression inhibited by what we only want our friends to know?
We can't really communicate our opinions in here for fear of our friends reading what we actually think and getting offended. I mean some of us might. Those are the people who really don't give a damn about what other people think about them. I'd peg them as individualistic. And others do too, but only covertly, shadowed behind the veil of a "friends only" journal or a single "friends only" entry. I have done this before, and I know many of my friends have. These are the people that enjoy being a part of the social structure they inhabit. This is firmly where I would place myself, if I had to categorize Justin. I am a creature of socialization, not solitude, and I thrive off of my interaction with my friends and extended social network.
But, on the whole, I think the livejournal concept really exemplifies the amount of censorship that is required in our daily lives to maintain working interpersonal relationships. That is society. Generally, as it, and in turn our opinions and beliefs, become more heterogeneous, and our American culture is increasingly becoming interwoven with multi-ethnic attitudes, straying from the concrete homogeneity of small cultural groups, we have to adapt by making our personalities more bland and indistinct - in order to fit in, due to the fear of being socially ostracized.
However this practice can be seen on a more concrete and less abstract level as well. Think of when you meet new people and make new friends, establishing new interpersonal relationships. Some people are comfortable operating as an open book and being open with new people. But how many people do you know that are completely comfortable letting their individuality shine? I know that I have to tone down my excitable personality when I meet new people, at least until I can feel out what their sense of humor is. Sometimes I really don't care, but most of the time I suppress how I would really act in favor of a more commonly acceptable mindset.
I guess that's it. Enough with the regurgitation already, I know. But it just makes me angry that I can't really write what I feel in here... or rather I can, I'm just afraid to rock the boat. So I would suppose that this is really more of a rant that has as its root cause based in my personal insecurity and fear of rejection.
Wow big surprise there haha. Anyway I'd suppose that's all for now. I'll be surprised to see how many of you actually read through all this garbage haha =) I'll talk to you laterrrr
-jR |
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